bye bye 2012

ola folks!

I'm sorta swooping through this post cuz I'm not gonna have any time else before 2012 ends! It's so crazy how the year has passed like in a snap.

So. I just wanna end this year thanking Jesus;

Maaaan. You have been so ridiculously faithful and I cannot even begin to describe how amazing You have been to me 'cuz I would have failed the moment I tried. All year I have been quite (extremely) the selfish, ungrateful brat, but you keep coming back and into my boat, knowing full well the person I am. You use me especially when I have no ability. You love me especially when I'm all wretched. You draw close, especially when nobody wants me. And You believe in me, especially when I give up on myself. And on top on Yourself, You send people to love me, believe in me and guide me. Then You teach me love, and You send people for me to love, and oh what a privilege-- because life really isn't life without people to love.

And if these weren't enough, You call me friend, daughter; my fair one.

I am thrilled because I know that in 2013, You're gonna be a hundred gazillion infinitrillion times sweeter, and unpredictable! I can't wait to be surprised hehe! I love You too ;)

And I end abruptly, right about now.
See u guys next year and have a really blessed one!

fan the flames, burn the chains

Hi folks,

I didn't want to start whining about my cold to anyone excessively... so I figured the least imposing place to purge about it was this space hahahahahaha. Okay I'm kidding I'm not gonna go on about it, or maybe I am. Nahh-- I'vehadthisawfulcoldsincesundayandit'snotgoingaway!!!!!!!!! Okay sorry. I had to. My nose is having mood swings or something. Runny then blocked then runny then more runny then blocked. And the throat feels like sand paper and comb against each other when I try to clear it. Yux. And have I mentioned I sound like a smurf???! #cray

Beyond all that, I managed to clear my drawing assignment and pull through 4 hours of sketch today hehe. #survivor this tells you a lot about how much I love drawing module.

Ok blabbering aside, I bumped into a really precious friend today. I had my shopping load of christmas stuffs and with them tired hands feet nose eyes nose again and everything, I bumped into this girl and I reacted to her by igno----  giving her a huge smile. (and that basically set everything else in place) Haha ok you know what I mean..

It's a crazy day, your body is behaving crazy, you just wanna head home and sleep off the madness. Who cares about some random person you haven't met for 5 years and so happen to bump into on the train? Jesus does. And so she responded to that smile and started sharing almost casually about what was going on over at her end. I'm still amazed by that amount of openness. And to sum it up, we're doing wanton mee date next week. I couldn't help but walk away from that feeling.. really... loved. Like I knew Jesus really loved her, cuz she seems to be finding someone from church to speak to again (it's been a good while). But I, I knew I was loved cuz He knows these sort of days are those that gets me all pumped up. Love it. Love that I got to be a friend, and got a friend today. Love love love it.

#stillexcitedbutineedtogetrestedsogoodnightimashutit #goawayuterriblecoldshooaway #okreallybye

x.

hear+

Love is enough.

light be

"Not trouble, not hard times, not hatred, not hunger, not homelessness, not bullying threats, not backstabbing, not even the worst sins listed in Scripture: They kill us in cold blood because they hate you. We’re sitting ducks; they pick us off one by one. None of this fazes us because Jesus loves us. I’m absolutely convinced that nothing—nothing living or dead, angelic or demonic, today or tomorrow, high or low, thinkable or unthinkable—absolutely nothing can get between us and God’s love because of the way that Jesus has embraced us." 

That is a little extract from the second half of Romans 8:31-39; the message bible. I love how it ends: "absolutely nothing can get between us and God’s love because of the way that Jesus has embraced us." His embrace is more than enough, and I want to believe that. Nothing can seperate us, not even my screaming and tantrums and pushing away or smelly feet. Nothing.

Things have been crazy emotional the last couple of weeks and the crazier thing is that, I can't put my finger on a specific issue. I just know that, beyond my valid fears and sadness stands strong the Word. I'm thankful for friends who tell me it's alright to be sad and at the same time remind me Truth. So today after much tears and worship and lifting my hands up even though I don't feel like it, is me encouraging you. 

Pal, you're not a flipping accident equivalent to passing wind. You were chosen to be loved.


xx,
sam

with everything

This whole time, I thought I was filled with loving kindness like yo 

I was the nicest person and best-est friend ever-- ever. 

Then bam. No. I realised I was the furthest thing from perfect. 

And I still am, the furthest thing from perfect. 

But knowing that the Perfect one Himself has got my back, changes the entire situation. 

Knowing that makes me wanna get off my seat and throw my hands up in the air 

and paarrttaaaayyeeee.

Knowing that you are loved unconditionally, sets you free. 

I guess with Jesus... the only way things can go after hitting rock bottom, is UP. (little talks with joan confirmed by sara's birthday balloons heh)