hands off the rope

"Let go."

These are two words I cringe to hear of. A sentence so short I often believe that it is illegal for any advice to be that simple, hence I dread it profusely. It basically is one of my toughest battles. 

It's like someone goes, "Sam, you need to le--" and I'm like all hands up, "Don't say it, no. Please don't say the l/g phrase." 

With that said, you must know today's sermon was a painfully good one if you were there too. Pastor did an amazing full-on message about letting go completely. And he did mean letting go, like for real. Letting go not with one hand grabbing onto the rope whilst the other is freely flapping about, that is just miserable.
"Let go, knowing that when you do, Jesus doesn't."

Letting go can happen only if you know Someone truly loves you. 

I've had Elijah Waters' 'Surprise Party' playing on repeat the last 2 days, whenever I could. 

It's too early for bed: Play.

I can't sleep: Play. 

I wake up in the middle of the night: Play.

I am on my way to church: Play.

I am waiting for service to start: Play.

I am done with service and lunch and waiting for my meeting to begin: Play.

I am done with the day and on me way home: Play.

I am here typing this to gather my thoughts: Play. 

I remember when I chanced upon the podcast (which has been rotting in my phone for months now), I was fighting my tears on the well-lit bus full of people. By the end of it, my hope jar was about to burst. 

I realised how much I did not understand God's love for me tho I thought I did, and how that really did not affect the extent of which He loved me ---- only measureable to His own life. I begin to realise how God can take me, (quoting Ps Elijah) "from a small mimic pussy cat, and turn me into a big bold lion."
That is what love can do. 

This broke my heart good and really, I started to get excited.

A super huge reminder: Grace is for today.

The manna God provided for the Israelis lasted them for that day. So, I've decided to thank God and praise Jesus for my daily manna, knowing that He supplies for my needs, that He is made strong in my weaknesses, instead of worrying for the manna I need in 2 days' time (which btw I cannot eat even if I could see it....)

Lengthy lion, yes I am a lion, not a pussy cat--- and I'm still learning how to completely be conscious of Christ; to remind myself to stop gripping onto the rope for my dear life till my hands are bleeding and worn out as though I am living life on my own. My life was paid for, my life was redeemed and my life continues from here, 03/09/12 2:48am, belonging to the One who gave up everything for me. 

I am gonna stop being a proud pork knuckle thinking my entire life credits my own goodness.

I am nothing. He is everything. 

Goodnight beautiful people ~

blueberries who worries

Did a short write today: http://rabbetplane.tumblr.com

Hello painful smile and postcard I'm journaling to Smiles with that is not big enough to contain all of my pain... oh and hello cardigan weather. (literally)

My weekend was full of breaking moments and haunting thoughts that didn't let me off on my first day of UT3. Not so much as journaling and word and cereal and cornerstone album and rain and crying couldn't fix really.

On a happier note, I'm left with 2 papers on monday after tomorrow, my films are all in and I've decided to dip dye my hair once I get my hands on le hair dye....... (which I hope will be soon or if there's anyone reading this who knows where to get turquoise/ pastel pink hair dye please let me know!!!) Jia has been so very kind as to rent out her ears to get me hair done-- k no one's gna get this only Jean; so here's credit to ya for being an awesome bunny.

So. In the last one month I have left this space for cricket noises,

The school term's ended (congrats to all to have survived 15 weeks of horrendous marketing and of course, congrats me). I took my first day off to clean up my room and the house and I've feasted on Lucky Charms for as much as a one month break from it is needed (and I mean my wallet needs a break from it, cuz my taste buds certainly do not).

Also, been up to some wallpaper business recently. I was just kinda done with having trash on my lock screen and really wanted reminders -- how better than to make one on my own hey. So me got a bitty help from Paul the genius and decided good things are meant to be shared, so I tagged myself in on Project #Daretobenotverygood (cuz #daretosuck has terrible connotations...) This one up there's been my lock screen for a couple of weeks now. I hope you steal it dear reader, cuz if anything, this is prolly the only thing you need to get out of this blog post. 

For this last bit; the best waffer thingy from Sushi Tei Hugh introduced to me about 2 years back (from which I've never looked back) // ooh and experimental nails from today -- i haven't got a fancy name for it so.

Well, that's it beautiful people. Hope your heart is alright, mine will be soon enough ~
Goodnight x.

ear candy

ps: SOS by Gin Wigmore's been on replay almost inexhaustibly. Do enjoy!

priorities and heart

1. Word
2. Family
3. People
4. School
5. Cardigan Weather

"I will open rivers in desolate heights,
And fountains in the midst of the valleys;
I will make the wilderness a pool of water,
And the dry lands springs of water."

#nomoredrylands
With every decision made, there is a grace and empowerment for it.


xx,
sam

The Kooks

Might I say I've fallen deeper in love with The Kooks? (it's always the case isn't it, when the show is taken up to a whole new level--- right before your eyes.) Caught The Kooks on wednesday with Jared and Jed and my pretty cardigan weather matey! I'm really glad Sijia91 enjoyed herself (I'm assuming she did.) And I have prove: She was screaming about frantically-- "I KNOW THIS SONG! YES THIS ONE! I KNOW THIS SONG! FINALLY!! ONE SONG I KNOW!"-- Hahahahahaha I'm quite sure she converted into an avid fan after that night. #yay #chemistrylevelup
We have started on Cardigan Weather plans and we're praying it will work out well. (inserts epic teehee) On a side note, I'm almost done with UT2 and, the Parrys touch down in S'pore on Monday. It is going to be extremely exciting.

Work resumes this August, Lord I receive Your grace for the month!
Huge note to self: IT STILL IS A YEAR OF UNCEASING FRUITFULNESS.

Alright today's wedding set will be blessed, and svc will be amazing #speakforth ~
Meow.

meow

 

"Fish for sale, fish for sale. Fresh, fresh, fresh, fresh. Pickerel and perch, pike and pout, bass and sunnies, but nary a trout."

- Howard Frank Mosher, On Kingdom Mountain

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So, I kinda just realised how much I love it when people address me as sam; by my name, especially in texts ~ #random

Second random note, i got back to writing! A few letters due but better late than never yes. Wrote some drafties here and there whenever I had the feels too haha. So I guess, something's changed on the inside recently.. I can just sense this, this difference. Like a supernatural hunger and new visions for dreams I thought I'd lost.

Speaking of hunger, it really doesn't help that I eat as much despite feeling ill the last couple of weeks. Wondodnsjzbhsb ah well, cheers to great food - both spiritual gluttony and the physical. July is going to be fruitful, and passed with great favour, amen :-)


xx,
sam

IGNITE! 2012

Hello,

It's been a pretty insane week. I really wanna get going about the week but as of 10 seconds ago, I confirmed my Hillsong Conference 2013 registration so to be honest I am so excited I can eat a whale right now heh heh heh. My hipster bandmate and I bought our tickets by faith in hope that everything will work out for the trip to Sydney. That includes finances, accommodation and school leave approval! So yay thank You Lord, you'll make it happen.

I got that out, now for Ignite 2012.
Met a really cool friend. I say that not because she has a rainbow on her head (though she does), but it was pretty cool how things turned out the way they did. So if there's one major thing I'm thankful for during this time at Ignite, it'd be having met her! (So Trisha if you ever get to reading this, we will have our DIY date when things get less packed yes!) Anws, I was quite sick throughout. Ridiculous throat and flu-ey... so didn't get to enjoy as much as I hoped to have. Oh well, was a pretty interesting experience nonetheless! Some pictures and I'm gna go back to my bed and ellie.

xx.

mewl

I am not afraid, and I sure am unafraid of you.

"I breathed silently in the stillness of tonight, wondering where this will take me, and I stopped when I realised I was giving away my control. I tried to figure what this was all adding up to, and maybe... just maybe, I want you. I want you... to know that I will not back down on a trampled dream. I want to be loved, for me; not for me to be able to give you something. To know, I am not looking for anything more than a friend who will trust me. Whom I can trust, who will grow old with me; cry with me in my heartbreaks and allow me to do the same. "


xx,
sam

Updates

There's just been too many crazy things going on so I'll let the pictures do the talking. Before that though, the gig buffet's really pumped me up to get me off my ass to start doing something with my music. Jeanie in tha bottle and I decided we might just do a collab afterall. We'll be 'Cardigan Weather' after Meg & Dia's write. Heh heh heh so we are praying we'll be kickass and we'll get on Ignite/ Baybeats next year ~ #thrilled. First though, we gta find drums bass and guits to come along our ride. In the meantime, we'll be working with what ever we have on hand. *cues in "two....is better than one..." haha. Alright fellas, I'm in class and as you can tell, terribly distracted.

INCH CHUA & THE METRIC SYSTEM

CARDIGAN WEATHER is coming to town

"I'm so hipster check out my old skool orange sorbet"

RUN NEON TIGER

PLAY 2 (2012)